One Republic - All We Are
I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you
And all along, you were shaded with patience, your strokes of everything that I need just to make it
And I believe that I could tear you apart but it won't break anything that you are, you are
We'll say our goodbyes you know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, our love is at a bind
I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would've fit
I figured there's nothing to lose
I need to get some perspective on these words before I write them down
You're an island and my ship is running ground
I could tear your apart, but it won't break anything that we are, we are
We'll say our goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need all we need, our love is at a bind
Every single day that I can breathe, you changed my philosophy
I'm never gonna let you pass me by
So don't say your goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change [x2]
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, our love is at a bind.
it's freaking great right.. it's so real and there's no bullshit about promising or swearing about some imaginative love story...
I'm totally in love with OneRepublic their lyrics are always real and touching..
Friday, February 29, 2008
Mami's Super Power!!!
I’ve just got a bad day. Here’s the story :
I’ve told you that I’m taking the 1st period of the kolokium. And it started with a disaster actually. I didn’t know that there’s a schedule for it, I didn’t see it anywhere and so did my friends. And I supposed to give my topic to the mentor on feb 4th, then I talked to her (Mrs. Yuli, my 1st and 2nd internship mentor) and she let me to give it to her the next day.. A week pass by…
Then Yuli announced the presentation schedule then she told me to talk with “Cik Prid” too. And u know what?! That ugly mean b%$#h said “NO” and “NO”
I’m in a very deep shock.. a real deep shock!!
There’re only these words going around my head :
- F*ck!
- Sh*T!
- B**ch!
And a lot of animals.. haha..
And right at that moment I realize that I was just doing one of the thing that I hate the most “BLAMING”.. yes, I was blaming that b**ch!! Damn… it’s like licking my own saliva!! I know it is very difficult to take the responsible, to take the blame for what happened on me, it’s not easy to always be positive and optimistic in a very bad situation.. but hey, lucky me I’ve found a good way to get over it..
First to do is calling my best friend, Anita which I believe she’ll laugh at me then mocking me.. but I prefer that kind of responses than those "mourning like" response. I’m not a big fan of getting any word "oohh... poor you, are you okay?" from others, it feels so weak.I don't need someone to make me more sad, i need someone to make me laugh about it!! And Just like I’ve just predicted, she laughed at it and I laughed at it too… 15% reduce
Then, I got into my car, putting some rock music, high volume..then I just singing..screaming out loud.. as tears goes down on my face.. after about 15-20 minutes.. another 35% reduce
But the thing that makes me 100% healed it’s simple.. u know I haven’t seen my mom for almost 2 weeks, she went to Singapore.. Then I picked her up with my bro.
Believe it or not, just by seeing her, hugging then kissing her it feels like a warm feeling flowing into my body.. Then with the talking and joking around with her and my bro it makes all those bad things that’s just happened today just “puff”..it’s gone
When I was a kid I used to always got in a fight with my mom. But you know as time goes by and as I grew up it turned out that my mom and I actually could be a very good friend.. She’s changing, I’m changing.. with the help of my aunties and uncles she’s changing too. So Thank u so much KuKulie, meme, Kukubing, Mama, kumafong, Om Young, Tante Rini, etc…
I know my mom, she’s not perfect.. she can’t cook, she’s too strict sometimes, she’s moody, she’s selfish, she’s childish but I think she’s the most wonderful mom in the world. She love me, she’s kind and caring, she’s funny, everyone love her..
This is life, nobody perfect… My point is no matter how cruel your mom could be she’ll always still be your mom. You have to respect them, all u need to do is remembering one simple question. “who brought you here, in this world, in this planet?”
Thank you very very much Mami!
To make me grow up, being such a optimist and happy person
To shine up my days (even sometimes u make it dark too.. Haha, that’s a real relationship think.. not just smile and laugh but also those tears and arguing)
Tomorrow it’s another day, tomorrow it’s a new start
Tomorrow will always come!!
Stand up bravely and face tomorrow with a whole new spirit…
I’ve told you that I’m taking the 1st period of the kolokium. And it started with a disaster actually. I didn’t know that there’s a schedule for it, I didn’t see it anywhere and so did my friends. And I supposed to give my topic to the mentor on feb 4th, then I talked to her (Mrs. Yuli, my 1st and 2nd internship mentor) and she let me to give it to her the next day.. A week pass by…
Then Yuli announced the presentation schedule then she told me to talk with “Cik Prid” too. And u know what?! That ugly mean b%$#h said “NO” and “NO”
I’m in a very deep shock.. a real deep shock!!
There’re only these words going around my head :
- F*ck!
- Sh*T!
- B**ch!
And a lot of animals.. haha..
And right at that moment I realize that I was just doing one of the thing that I hate the most “BLAMING”.. yes, I was blaming that b**ch!! Damn… it’s like licking my own saliva!! I know it is very difficult to take the responsible, to take the blame for what happened on me, it’s not easy to always be positive and optimistic in a very bad situation.. but hey, lucky me I’ve found a good way to get over it..
First to do is calling my best friend, Anita which I believe she’ll laugh at me then mocking me.. but I prefer that kind of responses than those "mourning like" response. I’m not a big fan of getting any word "oohh... poor you, are you okay?" from others, it feels so weak.I don't need someone to make me more sad, i need someone to make me laugh about it!! And Just like I’ve just predicted, she laughed at it and I laughed at it too… 15% reduce
Then, I got into my car, putting some rock music, high volume..then I just singing..screaming out loud.. as tears goes down on my face.. after about 15-20 minutes.. another 35% reduce
But the thing that makes me 100% healed it’s simple.. u know I haven’t seen my mom for almost 2 weeks, she went to Singapore.. Then I picked her up with my bro.
Believe it or not, just by seeing her, hugging then kissing her it feels like a warm feeling flowing into my body.. Then with the talking and joking around with her and my bro it makes all those bad things that’s just happened today just “puff”..it’s gone
When I was a kid I used to always got in a fight with my mom. But you know as time goes by and as I grew up it turned out that my mom and I actually could be a very good friend.. She’s changing, I’m changing.. with the help of my aunties and uncles she’s changing too. So Thank u so much KuKulie, meme, Kukubing, Mama, kumafong, Om Young, Tante Rini, etc…
I know my mom, she’s not perfect.. she can’t cook, she’s too strict sometimes, she’s moody, she’s selfish, she’s childish but I think she’s the most wonderful mom in the world. She love me, she’s kind and caring, she’s funny, everyone love her..
This is life, nobody perfect… My point is no matter how cruel your mom could be she’ll always still be your mom. You have to respect them, all u need to do is remembering one simple question. “who brought you here, in this world, in this planet?”
Thank you very very much Mami!
To make me grow up, being such a optimist and happy person
To shine up my days (even sometimes u make it dark too.. Haha, that’s a real relationship think.. not just smile and laugh but also those tears and arguing)
Tomorrow it’s another day, tomorrow it’s a new start
Tomorrow will always come!!
Stand up bravely and face tomorrow with a whole new spirit…
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
the Birthday GirL
yeah.. I'm turning 20 today.. and at fisrt I think this is a nightmare. You know, about being a woman in their 20s with no boyfriend, because in my tradition woman should have been married before 25 or 30. But after a lot of thinking and thinking and another thinking I think turning 20 it's actually my new start.
this is my new era, where I'll get more freedom from my famz. And I think this is where my dream come true in the making. yes, now I just love being woman in their 20s with no man, just a single and indepent woman that can count on herself! Nice!
Some friends asked me, when I want to be marry? and i simply answer them "well, I think the best age ist's about after my 25. And their just like, "What?!". And I just think I love single, because I think this is actually my opportunity to go as wild as I like.. to be someone as crazy as I want.. to hang out with my buddies as much as I love.. Yes, I am so in love with my life right now..
My wishes in my birthday :
- I want to graduate in 3.5 years
- I want to have more power, more spirit, more energy to chase and reaching my dreams.
Where r the boyz wishes?! well, I wonder where.. Who's my dream man?
I want my future man to be someone that can take full responsibility to his own life before he took mine. I want someone that accept and love me as I am, someone that'll hold my hands when I'm scared, someone who'll hold me when I get down, someone who'll support me to reach my goals, someone that's honest, kind and gentle. I don't need a man with words, because words is useless without actions. I don't need roses or diamons, all I need is every simple and little things he do.
Haha.. so I hope this birthday girl can be wiser and crazier than ever..
Good Luck to you ME!
this is my new era, where I'll get more freedom from my famz. And I think this is where my dream come true in the making. yes, now I just love being woman in their 20s with no man, just a single and indepent woman that can count on herself! Nice!
Some friends asked me, when I want to be marry? and i simply answer them "well, I think the best age ist's about after my 25. And their just like, "What?!". And I just think I love single, because I think this is actually my opportunity to go as wild as I like.. to be someone as crazy as I want.. to hang out with my buddies as much as I love.. Yes, I am so in love with my life right now..
My wishes in my birthday :
- I want to graduate in 3.5 years
- I want to have more power, more spirit, more energy to chase and reaching my dreams.
Where r the boyz wishes?! well, I wonder where.. Who's my dream man?
I want my future man to be someone that can take full responsibility to his own life before he took mine. I want someone that accept and love me as I am, someone that'll hold my hands when I'm scared, someone who'll hold me when I get down, someone who'll support me to reach my goals, someone that's honest, kind and gentle. I don't need a man with words, because words is useless without actions. I don't need roses or diamons, all I need is every simple and little things he do.
Haha.. so I hope this birthday girl can be wiser and crazier than ever..
Good Luck to you ME!
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Are we or Aren't we ?!
Okay, currently I'm kind of addicted to Sex and the City.. I found a lot of questions from that show. you know, in that show the main character Carrie with her 3 best friends which I found look a lot like me and my three best friends where we talk about a lot of things (but not sex). And today I've just got the intercultural communication class's final test. And I think and just keep thinking by myself, about low and hight context and which one is better and I just don't know.
It's really is confusing. Is staying virgin a wrong thing to do? do we really really need to do a "test drive" before marriage? is dating supposed to be casual relationship or a bonding relationship?! Is that wrong to be a successful woman? Is that wrong to be single in our 30s? Is being married really that worst?
And many many more questions?
Not just from Sex and the City from other movies I also found that low-context people they don't say the words "I love you" that easily and I think that's a good thing to do. You know I've been in a relationship before and I know it's really really difficult for to say "aku sayang kamu". And I just don't know why..but my tounge just twisted up and I can't say those words.. That's why I kind of confused when I my boyfriend (at that time) told me to say those words.. For me those words cannot been speaked out unless we really really meant it. (in a relationship, it's easy for me to say I love u mom or dad or my other famz).
And about being virgin.. okay honestly "test drive" is a must do. I know in my culture it's taboo. But, I don't care I mean based on my research from movies, books, and my families stories (u know they talk about sex in front of me, they're really really open about it). Sex is one of the "key" to a marriage. it's also good medically and mentally, to keep the intimacy of those couple. Call me a whore.. but that's what I believe.
Successful woman?! I want to be a success and independent woman that can count on herself, financially ofcourse. But u know there's thing called "bachelor" about a single man, rich, successfull, good looking.. which will be haunt by every single woman. but how about "bachelorette" a single woman, successfull, and good looking.. no one want to be with her, man are affraid of those woman. Why? is that wrong? Come on, woman have dreams..woman have power.. don't be such an selfish asshole.. damn!
We're all living on the same universe, we breath on the same air, we're eating from the same land that called earth.. why man and woman can't be the same? Why there's no specific word to described a man-whore or a man-bitch.. why it's all only for woman?
It's really is confusing. Is staying virgin a wrong thing to do? do we really really need to do a "test drive" before marriage? is dating supposed to be casual relationship or a bonding relationship?! Is that wrong to be a successful woman? Is that wrong to be single in our 30s? Is being married really that worst?
And many many more questions?
Not just from Sex and the City from other movies I also found that low-context people they don't say the words "I love you" that easily and I think that's a good thing to do. You know I've been in a relationship before and I know it's really really difficult for to say "aku sayang kamu". And I just don't know why..but my tounge just twisted up and I can't say those words.. That's why I kind of confused when I my boyfriend (at that time) told me to say those words.. For me those words cannot been speaked out unless we really really meant it. (in a relationship, it's easy for me to say I love u mom or dad or my other famz).
And about being virgin.. okay honestly "test drive" is a must do. I know in my culture it's taboo. But, I don't care I mean based on my research from movies, books, and my families stories (u know they talk about sex in front of me, they're really really open about it). Sex is one of the "key" to a marriage. it's also good medically and mentally, to keep the intimacy of those couple. Call me a whore.. but that's what I believe.
Successful woman?! I want to be a success and independent woman that can count on herself, financially ofcourse. But u know there's thing called "bachelor" about a single man, rich, successfull, good looking.. which will be haunt by every single woman. but how about "bachelorette" a single woman, successfull, and good looking.. no one want to be with her, man are affraid of those woman. Why? is that wrong? Come on, woman have dreams..woman have power.. don't be such an selfish asshole.. damn!
We're all living on the same universe, we breath on the same air, we're eating from the same land that called earth.. why man and woman can't be the same? Why there's no specific word to described a man-whore or a man-bitch.. why it's all only for woman?
Saturday, February 9, 2008
NIGHTMARE at Studio XXI
Okay, I need to take a deep breath before I write down my story
it began at 18.40 on Feb 08th '08 at Studio XXI, the 3rd studio (I think!!)
the nightmare is movie I watched, it called KUNGFU DUNK.. yes it's Jay Chow's movie
that thing, it cannot be described as a movie..it's a nightmare!!
I wonder who the fuck is the writer?! he doesn't have a brain I guess, the scenario is..Euww..
there's no conflict, the story..arght!! I can't even described it with words
A kungFu centre in a middle of a modern city?!
A basketball Tournament that worth a fight with the gangster?!
A new boy in team, and no one at the team is bother by him?!
No conflict!!
A KungFu fight at the middle of a BasketBall tournament?!
A weird "gigolo-like" costumes as uniform?!
A turning back time???!!! what the fuck?!
This isn't heroes, OMG..
Jay Chow acts is just awfull, I think he's always do the same character at his movies, juat like in Initial D and The Secret.. he played a sweet innocent and quite guy with huge talent... Sory Jay, but you suck!!
From the bad thing, here comes the good one..
yay...
Currently I'm addicted to this song. I've always love Kpop, I think Kpop songs oftenly got a great lyrics..and I've always love Sg wannabe since I heard their song titled "partner of life", where the Mv is staring Kim Dong Wan (Shinhwa's member) that's really really a real heart breaking MV..
And in their newest album I'm falling in love with this ong...
These are the translation, taken from www.aheeyah.com
Sg Wannabe - First Snow
On the first day that it snowed, I held your hands tightly
We treaded on the softly fallen snow
I didn't know that the most beautiful person in the world,
Will be the one to hurt me
We said goodbye, You left me
The one who let go of my hand so cold-heartedly
I love you... Even though it pains my heart, it's alright
I love you... Even though my tears flow, it's okay
If you are happier with someone else than you were with me, it's fine
Because... I love you
I ended up crying seeing the image of your back, leaving me
I loved you so much...
I love you... Even though it pains my heart, it's alright
I love you... Even though my tears flow, it's okay
If you are happier with someone else than you were with me, it's fine
Because I love you
On the days that the snow falls again,
On such days, I always end up thinking of you
What am I supposed to do every time that happens?
How am I supposed to forget you and still keep on living?
You were the person who lived inside my heart
I devoted my whole life to you
If the heavens will allow a day for us to meet again,
On such a day, let's not be apart
And these are the MV...
aa... so sweet isn't it?!
didn't really make sense but it's sweet right?!
it began at 18.40 on Feb 08th '08 at Studio XXI, the 3rd studio (I think!!)
the nightmare is movie I watched, it called KUNGFU DUNK.. yes it's Jay Chow's movie
that thing, it cannot be described as a movie..it's a nightmare!!
I wonder who the fuck is the writer?! he doesn't have a brain I guess, the scenario is..Euww..
there's no conflict, the story..arght!! I can't even described it with words
A kungFu centre in a middle of a modern city?!
A basketball Tournament that worth a fight with the gangster?!
A new boy in team, and no one at the team is bother by him?!
No conflict!!
A KungFu fight at the middle of a BasketBall tournament?!
A weird "gigolo-like" costumes as uniform?!
A turning back time???!!! what the fuck?!
This isn't heroes, OMG..
Jay Chow acts is just awfull, I think he's always do the same character at his movies, juat like in Initial D and The Secret.. he played a sweet innocent and quite guy with huge talent... Sory Jay, but you suck!!
From the bad thing, here comes the good one..
yay...
Currently I'm addicted to this song. I've always love Kpop, I think Kpop songs oftenly got a great lyrics..and I've always love Sg wannabe since I heard their song titled "partner of life", where the Mv is staring Kim Dong Wan (Shinhwa's member) that's really really a real heart breaking MV..
And in their newest album I'm falling in love with this ong...
These are the translation, taken from www.aheeyah.com
Sg Wannabe - First Snow
On the first day that it snowed, I held your hands tightly
We treaded on the softly fallen snow
I didn't know that the most beautiful person in the world,
Will be the one to hurt me
We said goodbye, You left me
The one who let go of my hand so cold-heartedly
I love you... Even though it pains my heart, it's alright
I love you... Even though my tears flow, it's okay
If you are happier with someone else than you were with me, it's fine
Because... I love you
I ended up crying seeing the image of your back, leaving me
I loved you so much...
I love you... Even though it pains my heart, it's alright
I love you... Even though my tears flow, it's okay
If you are happier with someone else than you were with me, it's fine
Because I love you
On the days that the snow falls again,
On such days, I always end up thinking of you
What am I supposed to do every time that happens?
How am I supposed to forget you and still keep on living?
You were the person who lived inside my heart
I devoted my whole life to you
If the heavens will allow a day for us to meet again,
On such a day, let's not be apart
And these are the MV...
aa... so sweet isn't it?!
didn't really make sense but it's sweet right?!
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
A new start and a Farewell
Start...
yeah.. it's been a while, I've been quite busy. doing a lot of things like baking, reading, and another reading. recently I got some good news for me, the things that fire up my spirit again! yay... I can take the kolokium class together with the EKK class. So I guess my target, my dream to graduate in 3.5 years still on my track.
Then..
I'm watching a lot of new movie trailers today, such as Jumper, Hayden Christensen's movie, The Dark NIght, etc. But one simple movie that attrack me so much is a movie titled Sleepwalking, it's a movie about family and I don't know how to explain it, but there's a simple quote on the trailer.. "JOleen is a woman that stuck in yesterday... James is a man that cannot imagine tomorrow.. Lara is a girl that trapped in the middle".. see it's really really interesting right?!
The FareweLL...
This afternoon my friend, Mr. John went to America for about 1 month to continue his last operation (he has cancer). So me and my fams we're calling him to say good bye. I talked with him, "Hey, Mr. John it's me Feli" then he reply "Oh, my cat" (he always calls me cat, from Felix the cat so I'm Feli the cat). I said good luck, get well soon, and come back soon. And said happy Chinese new year to him.. I'm gonna miss him, my fams gonna miss him too. He's a great man, he's smart , he's funny, and really really nice...
yeah.. it's been a while, I've been quite busy. doing a lot of things like baking, reading, and another reading. recently I got some good news for me, the things that fire up my spirit again! yay... I can take the kolokium class together with the EKK class. So I guess my target, my dream to graduate in 3.5 years still on my track.
Then..
I'm watching a lot of new movie trailers today, such as Jumper, Hayden Christensen's movie, The Dark NIght, etc. But one simple movie that attrack me so much is a movie titled Sleepwalking, it's a movie about family and I don't know how to explain it, but there's a simple quote on the trailer.. "JOleen is a woman that stuck in yesterday... James is a man that cannot imagine tomorrow.. Lara is a girl that trapped in the middle".. see it's really really interesting right?!
The FareweLL...
This afternoon my friend, Mr. John went to America for about 1 month to continue his last operation (he has cancer). So me and my fams we're calling him to say good bye. I talked with him, "Hey, Mr. John it's me Feli" then he reply "Oh, my cat" (he always calls me cat, from Felix the cat so I'm Feli the cat). I said good luck, get well soon, and come back soon. And said happy Chinese new year to him.. I'm gonna miss him, my fams gonna miss him too. He's a great man, he's smart , he's funny, and really really nice...
Friday, February 1, 2008
Becoming NERD!!!
Okay, I've spend this last 2 weeks reading, this is really really suck!! why? because the non-original dvd stands in PTC were all close!! Damn.. while I'm still in the middle watching Kdrama BAD LOVE by Kwon Sang Woo, the cute sexy guy..hmm..love him!!
I've read His Dark Material Trilogy by Philip Pullman :
1. The Golden Compas
2. The Subtle Knife
3. The AMber Spyglass
I read it because I've just watched the movie which played by Daniel Craig and Nicole Kidman that I think was a good movie, great effect..And one think that makes me really really interested in the books was beacues it said that there's an atheist site that Philip Pullman wrote on those books. ANd I just wanted to check it out!!
And I do agree with those statement, I won't tell you why. I'll just let you borrow the books from me if you want to know and read it yourself. The sory itself was interesting but somehow I just felt boring while reading it..
It's totally different when I read Harry Potter #7, the book is really really totally 100% interesting, I can't stop readin and keep reading it, I only spend 2 days to finish it!! From the very first chapter we already feel the thrill. A lot of actions and also a lot of death. But it's amazing!!! trust me!!
and currently I'm on my way finishing Eldest, the 2nd books of the Christopher Paolini trilogy.. and as soon I finished it, I've prepared The Bartemius Trilogy.. which start with The Amulet of Samarkand..
Reading is a good thing to do
it'll give you a lot of new knowledge
it'll give you thrill, sadness, exitement, etc...
it doesn't have to be a 'heavy' books
a 'light' books, fantasy, romance, actions
anything!!
It'll give you something to learn
I've read His Dark Material Trilogy by Philip Pullman :
1. The Golden Compas
2. The Subtle Knife
3. The AMber Spyglass
I read it because I've just watched the movie which played by Daniel Craig and Nicole Kidman that I think was a good movie, great effect..And one think that makes me really really interested in the books was beacues it said that there's an atheist site that Philip Pullman wrote on those books. ANd I just wanted to check it out!!
And I do agree with those statement, I won't tell you why. I'll just let you borrow the books from me if you want to know and read it yourself. The sory itself was interesting but somehow I just felt boring while reading it..
It's totally different when I read Harry Potter #7, the book is really really totally 100% interesting, I can't stop readin and keep reading it, I only spend 2 days to finish it!! From the very first chapter we already feel the thrill. A lot of actions and also a lot of death. But it's amazing!!! trust me!!
and currently I'm on my way finishing Eldest, the 2nd books of the Christopher Paolini trilogy.. and as soon I finished it, I've prepared The Bartemius Trilogy.. which start with The Amulet of Samarkand..
Reading is a good thing to do
it'll give you a lot of new knowledge
it'll give you thrill, sadness, exitement, etc...
it doesn't have to be a 'heavy' books
a 'light' books, fantasy, romance, actions
anything!!
It'll give you something to learn
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