To FeeL The Pleasure Behind The Pain

"The Fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good, and twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad, and no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something, and there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's okay. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams." - Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy..

"Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all"
- Three days Grace, Pain -

I've always wonder.. why it's even exist in this world.. the anger, the tears, the screaming, the stress, the fall down, the blood, the hurt, the pain... yes, THE PAIN..

what I'm talking about it's not just feeling.. but also physically
is it our curse made by Adam and Eve mistakes?!
But, I started to think that maybe it was a blessing from GOD to remind us all that we're not some kind of robot that feel nothing. We're a human being that can feel the pain and hurt by a broken heart, or the anger of the failure.. YES, that makes us different, we actually FEEL something.
We had a bad day.. then we got a bad hair day.. we fell down sometimes.. we cut our finger sometimes.. it's there to teach us to learn something..learning from our mistakes. That makes us special, we teach ourself with pain.

Thanks GOD for the pain!!
That surely make me an extraordinary human being!!
Always has.. always will..

Romantic or FooLish ??!!

just yesterday.. I watched MTV on my cousin's house, and it's the MTV's Spanking New. A very unique song by The Script, tittled THE MAN WHO CAN'T BE MOVED.. you'll know why I thing this song is unique..

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I've been in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't sit her,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Whos waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There on no hole in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

Maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

I know what you were thinking.. it's a silly lyrics..
a very foolish man, blindly in love, crazily in love.. just like a FOOL

But.. what got me thinking is that..
We need to stop mocking about the other, because sometimes..
sometimes, It'll make you lick your very own saliva

because the thing about life is that we can't predict it
we can have a goal, but there's things that we cannot controlled
and that's LOVE
wow.. what's going on with me, I've been talking about LOVE on and on lately
am I in LOVE?! with who??? silly...
am I wanting to be loved??! Am I feeling lonely??! (hell no!!)
am I curious about all the crazy adventures LOVE could take me??! (I think this is the answer..)

I am curious.. everybody is.. that makes us human..

Addicted to Sex and the City - part deux

Good afternoon... I've just got home from my lunch time with my mom at SUI/IKI.. my famz fav restaurant.. we'll go there atleast once a week. I get bored of it sometimes but it a great Japanese restaurant with great foods such as Yaki udon, Ramen, Chicken teriyaki, Salmon yaki, tempura, cawanmushi.. and many many more...

Okay, enough about my lunch I want to continue what I've started.. hehe..
Here's some other quothes from Sex and The City.. from non other than Carrie Bradshaw...

No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, You'll never get through it.... without your friends

Life doesn’t always turn out to be your fantasy, that’s why you need friendships that are real to get you through it all

Eventually all the pieces fall into place....until then, laugh at the confusion, live for the moment, and know that everything happens for a reason

When real people fall down in life, they get right back up and keep walking.

Life gives you lots of chances to screw up which means you have just as many chances to get it right

I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love

Sometimes second chances work out even better than the first because you learn from your mistakes.

The most important thing in life is your family. There are days you love them, and others you don't. But, in the end, they're the people you always come home to. Sometimes it's the family you're born into and sometimes it's the one you make for yourself.

You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because somebody else has a problem with it.

I admit it's tempting to wish for the perfect boss, the perfect parent, or the perfect outfit. But maybe the best any of us can do is not quit, play the hand we've been dealt, and accessorize what we've got

WOooo...
Come on, I know what you're thinking after you read all those quotes..
I know you want to watch it too.. HahAa..
Then don't hesitate yourself to do it.. it really is a great series.. trust me!!
There're still many touching quotes but I know I'll need at least another 10 posts to finished it..

from Sex and the City Movie trailer :
"fashions may come and go, but true friendships never go out of style"

A Good Day to Learn Somethings

Before I continuing my "addicted to sex and the city" topics.. I just want to write about my day, today.
Today is Wednesday, it's my cousin, Russell 5th b'day.. so I and my mom and my aunts and her family and her nannies and her driver went to a orphanages and "Panti Jompo" sorry I don't know the English word for that, a place for elder without family and with mental or physics illness.. it's so heartbreaking seeing those innocent kid even babies abandoned by their parents.. There's this cute kid but unfortunately he only has one eye ball so his parents left him on the hospital..
And not just that, there's a teenage girl that's become crazy because he's been raped many times and her mother didn't do anything about it..

Thanks GOD for givin' me a place that I could call HOME

It makes me realize how lucky I am and I'm so grateful on who I am and where I come from.. I have these amazingly great family, there's good and bad times but my family they're always together, they never leave a man behind.

Back at home I finished up the 4th season of Grey's anatomy and there's these scenes about a boy, Jeremy and a girl, Beth both cute and both with brain tumor.. they both met in a some kind of brain tumor group.. it was when Jeremy is about to get his surgery.. and Beth just get very scare and nervous about the jeremy's surgery.. Then...

B : What if you die?
J : (holding her hands tightly!) I won't
B : What if I die?
J : you won't
B : Okay, but.. you change my life, Jeremy West. You made it better, You made it brighter, full of joy, and if I die....
J : Don't you dare to die.. we're not finished yet.. I'm not finished loving you

yeah, it was very touching, I cry like a baby, they're very much in love.. the sad part is the boy didn't made it. but the great thing is the girl, Beth, she didn't give up.. she said that Jeremy would be mad at her if she just gave up..
And here comes the bright side.. she's alive!!

Okay, now let's get back to the day before
at home I watched Grey's Anatomy, and again it made me cry.. with the scenes where there's a brain tumor patients that cause him to talk harrasly or laugh like a crazy man and he just got married to his rebound girl.. and he keep telling her to go get laid with other guy and ofcourse it hurt her very very much.. but the thing is he love her very much so that the reason he did it it's because he didn't want her wife to be all alone when he's gone!!

Then there's this episode about a gay soldier..
You know.. they're soldier they're supposed to be all manly not gay.. so the guy die without even telling his true feeling for his partner
I learn that all I need to do is just put on my mp3 player and stop thinking about others opinion.. just say what I want to say.. don't regret it.. because I know, we know.. we can't turn back..

yeah I learn a lot about family.. friendship and.. LOVE..

am I gonna get that kind of love?! Am I gonna be all drama free?!
Am I gonna get a pure, sweet, crazy about each other, always be there for better and worse, nervous when he's around, feeling happy and thankful everyday..but still keep being myself kind of LOVE?!
I'm a believer.. I'm an optimist.. and I'm a fighter..
Yes.. I believe that happily ever after is out there for me..

Goodluck to everyone then...

Addicted to Sex and the City - part une

As I finished my “Sex and the City Marathon” time.. I could not wait to speak up my mind.. gosh I really really need to discuss this series with others.. so much topics, so much quotes, so much scenes.. So I’ll better get it started.. take it slow but sure and deep..
Let’s start some quotes from Carrie Bradshaw, the main character of this amazing series(for the record, these’re just some of them, there’re plenty of them..seriously!!)...

1. Carrie: Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.
2. Carrie: Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with them.
3. Carrie : When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?
4. Carrie : Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away”


- to be continued

Dearest Susan.......With Love, vipe

I dedicated this Aerosmith's songs to my friend Susan, who's been hurt and down but able to pull herself up and live up her life better than it's ever been..

Dream On by Aerosmith
Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isnt that the way
Everybodys got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away
(x2)

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

we're a woman
but we're not just a woman
we're more than just a woman
we need no man to be not just a woman
all we need is ourself and it's own spirit
and a 'lil prayer.. and a huge dream to believe in..

FIGHTING!! osh..