The Rules of Dating

when we get close to someone, you're getting to know each other, you go out just the two of you, you're texting each other everyday, you guys grew closer, and the more you know them the more you feel something to them. You feel the 'spark'.. it's a very great feeling..

But, what happens when the rules of dating came?
The hard to get tricks.. the disappearing.. the freakin' test..
It's not a very good feeling.

It feels sucks! I hate it, why can't we just go with the flow..
Forget about all the tricks.. No testing.. No game..

We're not a god damn mind reader. We can't understand unless they told or show us.

KISS and TELL

"For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me, you don't want to. Cause when you find that right person for a first kiss, it's everything." - Alex Karev from grey's Anatomy

I've never been kissed!
There I said it.. it's true!! no need to be surprised!
I am 21 and I've never been kissed!
I've been in a relationship 2 times and in a few flings
But.. I just can't do the 'KISS'

I don't know why.. it's like my heart telling me that 'He's not the ONE'. I know it'll sound ridiculous and corny, but this is ME. I can't lie to myself..
And to be honest.. I've never actually said 'I LOVE YOU'.. or in Indonesian it will be 'aku sayang kamu'.

cAN'T!!!

It's just a simple words but it just won't come out..
it's so hard that I can't breath..
some people will thing that I am being over reacted or silly or crazy.. but I am not lying.

Will I be able to KISS and TELL?
Only time will answer that..
until then..
I'll continue my journey alone with my freinds and famz!!

Expired Date

Expired date:
Female: 25-30

We can find those labels on most Indonesian. Woman should get married, take care of their husband, have kids, take care of their in laws, cook, clean.. and they have to do it before their 30s.
Who said that? Who claimed that statement?
Why would we... Women have to make a limit for our self?

We have to make no expired date for our self.
We need to able to do whatever it is we want to do.. we don’t need to get married just because the society will think that we are single desperate and lonely. NO!!
We are allowed to stay single, happy, and successful no matter how old we are!

GOD didn’t make any statement that said we have to be married before our 30s
Government didn’t make laws that said we are not allowed to stay single after our 30s

That label came because we made it.
We feel insecure.. Afraid that we’ll ended up all alone and lonely...
NO... We don’t need to rush our self, we don’t need to be embarrassed or scare...

Until...
You found the ONE, than we don’t need to be scare of the ‘expired date’.
Because if we commit, we have to do it like we meant it.
Do it with all of your heart.. Don’t take it half way..

BITCH series

I am looking for a job now.. and since like yesterday after one of my dear best friend told me about 'how to be noticeable' then it kind of inspire me to do this BITCH series..
it's an email that I sent about 5x to each company I'm applying.
In that email I explain the reason behind each subject.
My first subject is :
1. Reckless BITCH for your TEAM

Inside I describe what is real meaning and reason behind being a reckless person and what is the true intention of being a BITCH.

BITCH - Babe in Total Control of Herself
I got these from a book titled 'Why Man Married Bitches"

The 2nd act is :
2. Stubborn BITCH for your team

I've prepare a few more subjects for the next few days and I won't stop until I get a JOB.. not just an OKAY JOB but a CAREER.

3. Cultural BITCH for your TEAM
4. Silly BITCH for your TEAM
5. Hopeful BITCH for your TEAM
6. DREAMER BITCH for your TEAM
7. Rebellious BITCH for your TEAM

But let's all crossed our finger and HOPE that I won't need to think of another subjects.

Good Luck to all of u that's looking for a JOB
May The Force Be With Uuu...

POLITICs

today 3 bombing striking the capital city of my country. some rumors said it's not some terrorist attack but it was done by none other than one of the vice-president candidate from the last election. The thing that really bother me is that how could someone even hurt others just to satisfying their own ego. their lust.. their desire over MONEY, FAME, and POWER.
we really really need to have a government with no AMBITION-JUNKIE personal.

Mistakes

"OK, yes it's a mistake. I know it's a mistake, but there are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to really know it's a mistake is to make the mistake and look back and say 'yep, that was a mistake.' So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake, because then you'd go your whole life not knowing if something is a mistake or not. And dammit, I've made no mistakes! I've done all of this; my life, my relationship, my career, mistake-free. Does any of this make sense to you?"

LiLy Adrin - How I Met Your Mother

So, are you willing to make mistakes?

SoulMate

I've just went from being single to in a relationship.
People asked me how I feel, but I don't know how to answer.. is it joy? is it relieve? I don't know.. maybe it's been a long time since I fell in love with someone. I really really can't explained about how I feel, it feels like my heart won't talk to me anymore. And just like in my past relationship, I find it hard to actually say "I Love you", I don't know how people can't say it casually with someone that they in a relationship with.. I know it's an easy words, and I can casually say it to my friends and family, but with someone I'm in a relationship with.. it can be extremely difficult!! It feels like a giant candy got stuck in my throat!! seriously!! I'm not saying this because I've watched to many movies!! this is real!!

Okay..
Couples has their own soundtrack, so did I.. this is the song that played in my car, the day when he ask me to be his girlfriend.. it took a while, so I actually got 2 songs!!!

#1 LifeHouse - Hanging by a Moment

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....

#2 Natasha Bedingfield - Soulmate

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cause someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible, Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise
[Chorus]
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line
[Chorus]
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
[Bridge]
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
[Chorus]