KISS and TELL

"For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me, you don't want to. Cause when you find that right person for a first kiss, it's everything." - Alex Karev from grey's Anatomy

I've never been kissed!
There I said it.. it's true!! no need to be surprised!
I am 21 and I've never been kissed!
I've been in a relationship 2 times and in a few flings
But.. I just can't do the 'KISS'

I don't know why.. it's like my heart telling me that 'He's not the ONE'. I know it'll sound ridiculous and corny, but this is ME. I can't lie to myself..
And to be honest.. I've never actually said 'I LOVE YOU'.. or in Indonesian it will be 'aku sayang kamu'.

cAN'T!!!

It's just a simple words but it just won't come out..
it's so hard that I can't breath..
some people will thing that I am being over reacted or silly or crazy.. but I am not lying.

Will I be able to KISS and TELL?
Only time will answer that..
until then..
I'll continue my journey alone with my freinds and famz!!