bye bye 2010.. hello 2011
as for this new year I'm hoping for a whole new adventures, new places, new people, new excitements.
1. I want to finish up my 6 unfinished books + read more books
2. Be more 3C : Critical, Careful, and Calm in handling my jobs
3. Be a better friends, better listeners, n better advicers
4. Be more mature, more sensitive, more patience, more girlie, and more confident.
5. Be more generous.. give more
6. lose some weight (or at least just maintaining my current weight)
7. Save more, less spending
hmm.. I think that's it
I just want to be a better me. Let the past be my lessons and move on and be more awesome.
HAPPY NEW YEAR to y'all
Friday, December 31, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
Obsession Over Weirdness
I'm in love with myself.
Well, you can say I'm a little bit of a narcissistic. I think I'm a strong woman, with her own capability to stand up on her own.
I don't like to be told what to do.
I tend to speak up my point of views. And I'm not afraid to admit some facts about me, even if some people might think that I'm a weirdo.
Like when people see my tattoo, or when I told them that I'm an agnostic, or when I do my nails.
I enjoy being weird.
But I know that what will make it better is to have someone who loves every bit of your weirdness. And someone that'll love your love handle.
Well, you can say I'm a little bit of a narcissistic. I think I'm a strong woman, with her own capability to stand up on her own.
I don't like to be told what to do.
I tend to speak up my point of views. And I'm not afraid to admit some facts about me, even if some people might think that I'm a weirdo.
Like when people see my tattoo, or when I told them that I'm an agnostic, or when I do my nails.
I enjoy being weird.
But I know that what will make it better is to have someone who loves every bit of your weirdness. And someone that'll love your love handle.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Speak Up and just.. Speak Up!
Some people told me that in business you have to be aggressive and selfish. You have to step out of your game, don't screw up, don't wait for the opportunity to come.. you chase them.
But what happens when someone that told me that actually telling me that I was being selfish, questioning me whether I ever consider others feeling.
So, what is it about business world that I have to be?
Should I turn into this hungry monster, chasing after success, chasing after opportunity. Or should I be a saint?
Well, is it wrong to speak up your mind, being selfish.. and being able to express my feeling, the anger, the disappointment?
Do I have to keep my voice down, and just talk it to myself?
And let people control me, telling me what to do, what to feel, how to behave, how to do this and that... Even if I life in not-so-free country, I don't want to be not-so-free in expressing how I feel.
I've always think of myself as a very very.. selfish person. but, is it wrong? I think admitting that you're selfish is way less selfish than denying it. Cause I believe that every single person in this world is selfish.
But what happens when someone that told me that actually telling me that I was being selfish, questioning me whether I ever consider others feeling.
So, what is it about business world that I have to be?
Should I turn into this hungry monster, chasing after success, chasing after opportunity. Or should I be a saint?
Well, is it wrong to speak up your mind, being selfish.. and being able to express my feeling, the anger, the disappointment?
Do I have to keep my voice down, and just talk it to myself?
And let people control me, telling me what to do, what to feel, how to behave, how to do this and that... Even if I life in not-so-free country, I don't want to be not-so-free in expressing how I feel.
I've always think of myself as a very very.. selfish person. but, is it wrong? I think admitting that you're selfish is way less selfish than denying it. Cause I believe that every single person in this world is selfish.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Fear You'll Fall
Waiting fot the right 'moment'.
Waiting for the right 'person'.
Maybe that was just a lame excuse that we created in order to escape the falling. In order to hide our fear. But the maybe there are no perfect 'moment', there are no perfect 'person'.
We just need to be dare in creating that 'not so perfect moment' with this 'not so perfect person'. And we just change the way we see this imperfection.
Coz if we just waiting.. and waiting..
we'll just ended up with so many things unsaid. And you'll just can questioning 'what if..'.
At the end of the day, all we can do is just be daring to fall. Cause I know that we're way stronger than you think. We as a human being has the capability to be strong. Just believe that.
Waiting for the right 'person'.
Maybe that was just a lame excuse that we created in order to escape the falling. In order to hide our fear. But the maybe there are no perfect 'moment', there are no perfect 'person'.
We just need to be dare in creating that 'not so perfect moment' with this 'not so perfect person'. And we just change the way we see this imperfection.
Coz if we just waiting.. and waiting..
we'll just ended up with so many things unsaid. And you'll just can questioning 'what if..'.
At the end of the day, all we can do is just be daring to fall. Cause I know that we're way stronger than you think. We as a human being has the capability to be strong. Just believe that.
Monday, November 8, 2010
A Walk Through Ashes
I went to some shelter for the volcano disaster's victims with some people from my company. We sent out foods, water, blanket, medicines and many more. And what I've witnessed is just.. horrible
On our way to Jogja from Semarang we passed by some small local town which had already turned into gray. Everything is gray and dead, all those greenish scenery now turned into a sad, gray, and covered with ashes.
In one of the shelter in Salam, Magelang the condition is terrible. They put hundred of elders in one small room, where there's like no room to move. The air is dusty, smelly, and just awful. It was hot and they're lying on the hard floor. Because there are no electricity after 5pm and no clean water running.
It was a very great opportunity for me, even if I just delivering these small help. I'm hoping more people will lend their hands to not just pray but to actually DO something.
On our way to Jogja from Semarang we passed by some small local town which had already turned into gray. Everything is gray and dead, all those greenish scenery now turned into a sad, gray, and covered with ashes.
In one of the shelter in Salam, Magelang the condition is terrible. They put hundred of elders in one small room, where there's like no room to move. The air is dusty, smelly, and just awful. It was hot and they're lying on the hard floor. Because there are no electricity after 5pm and no clean water running.
It was a very great opportunity for me, even if I just delivering these small help. I'm hoping more people will lend their hands to not just pray but to actually DO something.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
In or Out
When you finally ready to let yourself fall, when you finally open your heart to let someone enter it, and when everything seems so perfect.. that’s when the problems will come to you.
You’ll be in a position where you have no shield, no protection, just empty-handedly walking with that one person.
That one person will protect you, hold you, and never let go. Or.. they’ll run, hide, and leave you.
That’s the risk of this madness called “falling in love”. It’s like a big investment, if you success you’ll be rich, but if you lose then you’ll go bankrupt.
If you’re successful, you’ll feel like nothing’s impossible. However, fall out of love feels like being a dead man walking. You’re alive, you’re doing your daily activity, but somehow you can’t feel a thing.
So, is it really worth the risk?
And when you fall out of love, will you be able to recover?
When you two finally find your happy ending, will it last forever?
You’ll be in a position where you have no shield, no protection, just empty-handedly walking with that one person.
That one person will protect you, hold you, and never let go. Or.. they’ll run, hide, and leave you.
That’s the risk of this madness called “falling in love”. It’s like a big investment, if you success you’ll be rich, but if you lose then you’ll go bankrupt.
If you’re successful, you’ll feel like nothing’s impossible. However, fall out of love feels like being a dead man walking. You’re alive, you’re doing your daily activity, but somehow you can’t feel a thing.
So, is it really worth the risk?
And when you fall out of love, will you be able to recover?
When you two finally find your happy ending, will it last forever?
Monday, November 1, 2010
Bias in Life
When it come to life, a future.. I can be a real jerk. I am a very selfish person. because in my mind this is my own life, and the one that can decide what to do with this short life of mine is me.
That's why when it comes to life. I tend to close my ears and just walk.
Walk the life as I wanted, whether it's a walk to a cold place, hot place, or a warm place. Coz sometimes we really need to step up, forget about the rest of the world and start to focusing on our own happiness.
Don't be afraid if people gonna hate you, don't you care about what others might think about you. Life is way too damn short to worried about those crap talks.
because the thing is, we can't control what's gonna happens. we're not some kind a psych who can read the future. Life can be both simple and complicated, depends on what you want to interpret them to be. How you see life, how you see love, how you see people is bias.
Everything in life has two sides of it story, just like a coin. it just depends on your own thoughts. so whether this post is a crap or an inspiration is actually based on your thoughts.
That's why when it comes to life. I tend to close my ears and just walk.
Walk the life as I wanted, whether it's a walk to a cold place, hot place, or a warm place. Coz sometimes we really need to step up, forget about the rest of the world and start to focusing on our own happiness.
Don't be afraid if people gonna hate you, don't you care about what others might think about you. Life is way too damn short to worried about those crap talks.
because the thing is, we can't control what's gonna happens. we're not some kind a psych who can read the future. Life can be both simple and complicated, depends on what you want to interpret them to be. How you see life, how you see love, how you see people is bias.
Everything in life has two sides of it story, just like a coin. it just depends on your own thoughts. so whether this post is a crap or an inspiration is actually based on your thoughts.
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